number 13

my friend ben said to me at the weekend that i use a lot of superlatives, that was the most amazing thing i learnt about myself that day

number 12

i do a lot of my thinking in the shower... i do a huge amount of it in there. there's something... pure... about it... a clean, naked, pure thing... thinking in the shower... no distractions... not really all that much else to do in there. i think about all things, i plan my day, i think through yesterday. i make a fresh start, put to rest the concerns of the day before, they're not worth the time taken to think through them anymore. i do continue to think about these things, these worries, these concerns, but for that small period of time they're put to rest, left alone and forgotten.... its just me here... i'm alone, warm and thoughtful... there's no point worrying in there... what can you do about your concerns? nothing, nothing can be done while you're in the shower... you could get out... but then... you'd not be in the shower anymore... see... you can't do anything about your worries whilst in the shower... so you might as well relax and not let them bother you... are you following me? (with this idea... this "shower thought" paradigm... not to the shower...) thinking in the shower... its what i do... i do a lot of it in there... i should be writing this in there now, then you'd understand, i wouldn't be stumbling over my words either, wouldn't be getting confused over adjectives and punctuation. in the shower, words just flow out, they "fit", they make sense... you'd know exactly what all this was about if i had written it in the shower, you'd all agree. it would be unanimous, we'd have a certain kinship, an understanding. however, if i had, my computer would have broken and i would have been electrocuted